Just a little disclaimer. This might sound like I want pity. I don't. What you are about to read are facts. I just would like to tell you some of these facts I am experiencing. I know for a fact that I'm not alone. If this post helps just one person or makes just one person feel not so alone, I will know I did the right thing.
I'm extremely frustrated.
I feel like a thirty year old trapped inside an infant's body. I just gave up my apartment; something that I dreamed about since I was fifteen. If I want to get another apartment, I know I will need an outstanding team to help me. I need physical help for pretty much everything. It is very hard to get good help. When I don't have good help who understands what I want to do, I don't feel like doing anything.
I was talking to my friend who is kind of in the same situation and she described it perfectly.
I am stuck. I feel like all of the people around me are moving on, and getting married, and having kids, and here I am. Just stuck.
Now, I don't like to dwell on problems. I like to fix problems. So I have been asking myself what I can do. What can you do when you can't really change your situation?
Here are three things I am going to start doing to try to help myself. If you, too, are feeling "stuck", maybe this will help you.
Focus on my writing. As most of you know, I have to rewrite my second manuscript. I actually don't mind this. I'm happy to have something that I can make better. Writing makes me feel good. Writing makes me feel productive. Writing is something I can do by myself. Along with a few other books, I think I have an idea for a short piece, and after talking to my friend, I think I am going to do it for my website.
Get more presentations. I still like talking to groups and spreading my message, so if you have any suggestions on how to get more presentations, I'm all ears.
Don't dismiss the small stuff. I absolutely love listening to music on my bed. I absolutely love listening to a good book. I like watching a favorite show on Netflix all day. I like emailing with a friend. I like going to the mall, even when I don't need anything. I like going for frozen yogurt. So I think I need to know I can do all of this without feeling guilty or thinking I'm a loser.
Hmmm. Now I wrote everything out... I'm frustrated with the things I can't do and need to remember to enjoy the things I can do? This doesn't sound that uncommon after all.